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It's strange the selective rules of etiquette that have been ingrained into me by my time at public school. Like when you are going through a door in a public place, take a quick glance behind you to make sure you don't let the door go into anyone's face. Duh? And if you are late for meeting someone, be out of breath., or flustered at the very least. Fake it even, it doesn't matter. There used to be a joke some of our classes that when someone was late they would put on a great show of breathlessness like they had just run a half-marathon. Ambling into view when you've kept someone waiting for half an hour or more is just adding insult to injury. Of course if the person involved decided not to wait for you, it's a different matter…

After losing a few ebay bids to people who snipe better than me (though looking at the various sniping programs around… maybe not) I'm pretty much giving up on the gig of the year, it's just way too last minute. Not that I decided I wanted to go last minute, it's that I only found out I didn't have a ticket last minute. Fuck!

Especially given the time… /me adds earplugs to shopping list.

The interview thingy was in a completely unexpected format and didn't go very well. Haven't heard back from them, or anyone else for that matter, which is as frustrating as it sounds. Gah.

Coming up. Ghetto (probably), Scissor Sisters (possibly), and a Birthday thing (maybe). I still have no idea what to do for my 23rd. Any ideas?

The house part was astoundingly good, thanks lots to everyone who came. Pics will follow over the next few days. To understand what was going on it helps to know that the party was more or less split into three rooms…

:)

Also I have a job interview on Wednesday. Wish me luck!

It's astounding how much comfort I take from the mere presence of some people. And it's strange how random the selection is. Most of them are here tonight. I've missed them terribly.

Wow. Jeff Buckley really was something else, wasn't he? Wow. Seriously.

I badly need a plan. Or at least a group of workable principles, since plans never work. I can't go on like this, it's silly. In so much as it's painful and frustrating and probably unnecessary. Can't do it alone though, I need a boost or a leg up or something. Maybe that's crap of me, but dwelling on my own perceived crapnesses is the sort of thing that got me into this in the first place. In any case, I need to get out more.

Also: I hate my router. It eats messenger messages.

When I was little there was a time when I was constantly playing one of those old LCD based hand-held computer games. The constant inane pointless bleeping it madeirritated everyone, not least me. So I took a screwdriver to it, and disconnected the bleeper. Yaay! Silence!

My computer has had the same problem lately with one of it's three fans. While cleaning it in an effort to make it shut up I discovered that for some ill-conceived reason it blows air into an enclosed space, making it pretty much useless. So when the noise returned after a period of blissful quiet, I disconnected it. No longer does my room sound like a building site!

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Summary of Strategists

• Quiet, easy-going and intellectually curious - Probably? I'd like to think so.


• Use logical, objective thinking to find original solutions to problems - Ditto: I like to think so.


• Think of themselves as bright, logical and individualistic - I certainly think that, even if I'm not.


• May be impractical, forgetting practical issues, such as paying bills or doing the
  shopping - Bills? What?

More about Strategists

Strategists are quiet people who like to get to the heart of tough problems on their own and come up with innovative solutions. They analyse situations with a sceptical eye and develop ways of measuring everything, including themselves. - I'm a critic, go figure.

Strategists are generally easy-going. They are intellectually curious and enjoy abstract ideas. Sometimes they like thinking of a solution to a problem more than taking practical steps to solve it. - Well, it depends how abstract the problem is in the first place! And the effort involved.

In situations where they can't use their talents, are unappreciated, or not taken seriously, Strategists may become negatively critical or sarcastic. Who, me? Madness. Under extreme stress, Strategists could be prone to inappropriate, tearful or angry outbursts. - Bah

Strategists may be insensitive to the emotional needs of others or how their behavior impacts the people around them. - Yeah, sorry about that.

Though I honestly don't miss uni, I find myself very curious as to it's goings on. It just seems so dynamic compared to my current non-life which far it seems to primarily revolve around this computer; either through the constant refinement and sending out to my CV, the crapload of stuff I'm bittorrenting in (including ESotSM which is currently playing in the corner) or my various fiddlings with Macromedia. Some of the results of the latter of which can be seen here! Woo.

My not eating/sleeping/wearing-enough-clothes-when-it's-cold antics have once again lead to a dumbass cold. So annoying!! That'll teach me I suppose, needless to say I'm wearing/eating/sleeping lots now :-(

Yesterday I went to Darren's for dinner; after a quick shopping trip -- the first time I've been in a proper supermarket for months! -- it was carbonara and delicious polish buffalo grass vodka. Met some of his very cool house mates in their amazing house, though in their company I felt slightly inferior that I don't know at least three languages fluently :-)

Next was wandering around a few bars in Old Street, which is cool, but completely rammed and kindof minging on the outside, and Kings Cross, where we were subjugated to one of those horrendous comedy DJs normally found at under funded weddings.

Then it was on to Popstars, where we met up with the rest of the housemates and whatnot coming from Retros and Exotica, making a pretty respectable posse. The music was really excellent and we all danced too much :-) I actually had a couple of people overtly watching me, which was quite nice in a very disconcerting way. I need to stop being so fear't of eye contact with people in clubs. Also I think I probably dance better when I'm not paying any attention to what I'm doing…

After that a pleasant couple of bus trips back. I find good chat on the way back from any night out always makes a huge difference to the overall feel of the night. Then it was other people's re-heated dominos pizza and playing Soul Calibur 2 'til 5 o'clock. Yaay!

I should probably go back to bed…. Or get some coffee… Mmmm, coffee…